Hey people... Well lets just say this.. All guys need to die. Unless your the one I love. Seriously. That or they need to go see that movie Hitch. All guys do is find that one thing that the girl wants gets it for her.. expects her to sleep with him and then leaves her. Why is it that he could mean the world to you and you mean absolutely nothing to him. Why is it. Why is it that just when you think things are going absolutely great things get worse. An why is it that guys just seem not to care. I know that it isn't that girls aren't good enough.

Why is it that everytime that I see him I freeze. Why is it that everytime I try I loose. What is it that makes it so bad. Why does it have to happen to me. I found a diffrent guy and turns out that he found himself a girlfriend also. Is it that I'm just not supposed to have anyone. I want that one guy that I had, and that I just can't have back. See yah later guys...

~!~Kaite~!~

Currently Watching A Cinderella Story (Full Screen Edition) By Hilary Duff, Jennifer Coolidge, Chad Michael Murray see related

Hey guys its me... totally bored. like always.. well anyways.. I officially think that im gonna give up on all guys.. i mean all they want is one thing and then bam they dont want you anymore... Why do most all guys want something more than just a kiss? seriously..

Nothing I do, seems to be good enough for you.
Why cant you just look at me, what have I done to you?
I’m so confused, nothing I say or do will ever make you notice me.
I’ve done everything! Everything that I could think of.
What else is there to but just keep wishing you, and dream of the day that you will see me too.

I have never met someone quite like you. You see me. You see clear into the depths of my heart. You can see everything hidden behind my eyes. My pain, my sorrow, my happiness, my joy, my soul,you see me. Nobody has ever seen me this way before. Somehow you do and it amazes me. Sometimes you make me want to throw my arms around you and give you the biggest hug. Other times I just want to strangle you, but hating you makes me hate myself. But yet you know this. Somehow you found a way in, a way to see me, that others may never find. Thats just how it is and how its going to be, no matter how hard they may try. I have built a wall, until you break that wall, you will never know me.

Hey me again...

well again life really sucks. but what can you do. i dont know whats going on anymore but ok. i just want my life back the one that nothing or nobody could ruin. i thought i had  it so good. i did have it so good. but i guess something bad had to happen to it and instead something really bad did. i lost the love of my life. and now i know that even as much as i care about him and as much as i try i will never ever have h im back in my life. if anyone has any ideas how i could try and get him back let me know. i love this guy. i love him so much i am litterlay diening since i dont have him in my life. he is the one and only one that i want.. i dont know what will happen if i dont get him back in my life someday soon. i just wish he could understand...i wish he could read the stuff in here.. but he dont have a computer and i cant tell him because i dont have the stregnth and the balls to tell him.. he was the kind of guy that i could tell him anything... he would call just to say hi or good night... he was the one that told you how much he cared about you and even after a long tough day at work he would still take the time before showering and call you and talk to you or call just to say hi so he could here my voice...

i dont know if any of you have actually fallen in love but i know i have. not with any other guy but with him he is the one that i really want to spend my life with.. most people think love he makes me feel special and you cry when you guys break up... it aint even like that... for me i know i have changed my hair style alot changed the people i hang with i would go out and buy a new outfit just to see if he noticed me again. when me and him broke up i couldnt sleep. couldnt sleep for weeks we broke up on august 28,2004 and to this day i find it hard to sleep.. i find it hared to go get up and go to school and see him there all alone (meaning with no girl) and him not realize how i really feel. it hurts so much to know that he doesnt know and never will if he could just know how im feeling maybe he would just understand.... i dont know ill write later guys im way toupset to think about anything...

Tell her you think she’s AMAZING. Tell her why you think she’s so amazing.  Play with her hair. Talk to her in movie theatres. Snuggle, Hold her hand, and lightly KISS her. Hold her hand and walk. Hold her hand and run. Just hold her hand. Pick flowers from other people’s yards and give them to her. Tell her she looks BEAUTIFUL. Introduce her to your friends as "The most amazing girl I know''. Sit in the park and talk to her. Take her to the library, ice skating, playgrounds, and coffee shops Starbucks preferably!! Tell her stupid jokes... Whatever it takes to make her laugh. Write poems about her. Walk with her, even if it’s just around the block. Throw pebbles at her window at night. KISS her while she sleeps.  Do things that make her SMILE, make her LAUGH, and make her want to KISS you right on the face. BE SPONTANEOUS… When she starts yelling at you, tell her you love her. Give her back rubs. Play football with her. Let her fall asleep in your arms. Call her even if it’s just to say hi. Call her back if she calls you. Jump on the bed with her.  Whisper in her ear. Sing to her, no matter how bad you are. Carve your names into a tree. Get her mad, then KISS her. Push her on swings. Stay up with her all night. Leave her little unexpected notes… on the car, or on her door, saying how much she means to you. Take her to romantic places and lay out blankets to look at the *STARS*. Make up nicknames for each other. Show up at her work or apartment unexpectedly. Send flowers and dorky notes that only you two understand. Teach her guitar. Lend her your c.d.’s. Make her c.d.’s of songs that remind you of her. Write her letters. If she asks you to go to a show with her, go, even if it means a 5 hour car trip. Go on a road trip even if there’s no destination or you can’t be gone long. Listen to her favorite songs. When she’s sad or sick, hang out with her or stay on the phone with her, even if she’s not saying anything.  Buy her ice cream. Let her take all the pictures of you SHE WANTS. Look into her eyes. Slow dance with her, even if the music is fast. Make her a romantic dinner for special days. Remember dates... even ones like your first KISS or date and surprise her on the anniversary. KISS her in the rain. KISS her when she least expects it. When you fall in love with her, TELL HER.

This is the one thing that I want. Yes, I know that it will never come true again. But I wish it would. This came true when I met Dom. Yeah, We broke up almost 7 months ago. Who cares. He was and is my first love and always will be. I just wish people would stop telling me to get over him. I can't and well this is what I want. And I want to do it all with Dom.